Post-Analog Generation

It’s funny how the digital world connects us, but makes us feel incredibly lonely at the same time. This juxtaposition has been nabbing at me and getting my attention these days, as I live in the grand technologically connected city of Seoul, with incredibly high-speed 4G LTE wifi almost everywhere, and where most everyone on the bus, subway, streets, and classrooms are looking down on their brightly lit mobile phone screens fully absorbed in the digital lives of others. 

It’s fascinating that this generation is exposed to so much instantly-gratified routines like constant messaging back and forth on Kakao Talk, or checking and uploading clips on Snapchat, and running through all the Instagram notifications of crisp and clean, filtered, hipstered-out photo of coffee cups and blank walls. So interesting how this generation has been so online-focused, and rightly so, as globalization and international markets strive to connect and compete with one another by bridging gaps through virtual data and reports. This information generation has been so exposed to who knows what, and the access to other people’s lives, selfies, blogs, travels, political thoughts, and various opinions has surfaced on the web and shared by countless users per day.

It’s crazy to think even 20 years ago, the dot.com invention did not exist nor permeate through society as it does now.

Why am I bringing this up?

Because I find that all lot of young people (including myself) are finding their sense of worth, importance, and identity on the web. More importantly, we are finding our sense of significance by how many followers we have, how many responses we get, and how many “likes” we obtain on a post or photo. God bless the people who really don’t think this way or use social platforms as obsessively to gain a sense of approval, but God also bless those who are bombarded with insecurity and fears as they see their post go unnoticed. 

I think it’s something people don’t like to talk about or admit to, because frankly speaking it is very silly and outrageous to feel less important or valuable because people missed or didn’t give attention to your post, but I think our freedom of expression, thoughts, and feelings are spoken through these platforms and with the sense of vulnerability we feel robbed of significance if no one seems to care. 

However, I do believe this is pandemic more in certain regions, and now that I am back in Seoul, South Korea, the hub of technology and quick everything, I find myself also being on my phone often and checking social media (aka only Facebook because I deleted Instagram) a lot more frequently and with a lot more detail and a lot more judgment and insecurity than I did when I was living in Italy and traveling all throughout Europe. Europeans don’t find that much of their sense of worth online because they are not really online. Yes they are available online but they tend to take social media lightly and engage in normal everyday activities with much love and energy. At least the Italians and those living in Italy. They prefer to be more relaxed, laid back, and incredibly relational and welcoming to foreigners and interested about each individual and what they like and desire. Even in Austria I found so many happy others-focused authentic lifestyles that were fully there in the present. 

In Korea and Eastern Asia, I find more rigid walls, rules of respect, lack of vulnerability, and a whole lot of judgment. I’m sorry if I sound like I am generalizing but I think people who have experienced cross cultural lifestyles and lived in 3 different continents (like myself) are allowed to acknowledge the stark differences and give perspective to others. Throughout it all I’ve found that relationships and authenticity are the most important. And I’m not talking about romantic relationships (which are also important) but friendships and people who you do life with. 

These people should make your lives full of joy, fun, laughter, depth, and stick with you through the tough times and the good times. Your sense of worth and approval and significance should come from God and also backed up by these appreciative loving present people. They should make you feel alive and you should forget that you need to prove yourself online because you are too busy living joyfully and richly in the unplugged world. This is not to say taking photos or videos are bad, I myself am an avid documentarist of everything as a photographer and videographer because I find these moments so precious and fleeting. However, the need to be seen and liked by the digital community and approved of should not be the reason for posts. 

I think it happens to the best of all of us at times, some more than others, but in the end I say this to examine your real life. Do they reflect what you post up and more? Does your everyday life feel more abundant and joyful and deeply connected than your social media posts seem? Or are they but a fleeting non-authentic moment created just for the photo and unsuspecting audience? Does everything come out of s place of abundance and overflow of your real life? Or is it all made up on the spot to feature a life you really don’t have? 

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Best Short-Films/Docu’s I’ve Watched

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Bella Vita

Bella Vita is such a beautifully made film. The cinematography and the story-telling is so natural yet so epic. It lurched my heart towards Italy and its culture and loving people again. I must do a surfing excursion with my friends there 🙂

You would think this is a movie just about a typical American surfer going to Italy to catch some waves, but in reality it is a lot about life, enjoying being laid back, exploring Italian culture and their community-oriented lifestyles, being surrounded by incredible people, and doing the things you love to do. The surfing is amazing, and their passion of this sport is incredible, and so relatable, as I’ve surfed several times and felt so incredibly alive and enlightened in life. I loved how they incorporated so much of Italian culture and focused on the local authentic lives of each important person in this film. Man, I was so inspired while watching this film. I miss the Italian culture, the welcoming and hospitable people, the relaxed and loving energy, and the raw authentic away-from-everything kind of feels you get while traveling through Tuscany. The loving and open hearts of the surfers from all over the world was so good to see too, and witnessing the beginnings of this the surf movement Italy was so cool!

I personally lived in Italy for 6 months so seeing all the gorgeous places landscapes of Florence, Pisa, and Venice again was so sweet. My heart was leaping with longing , joy, and even tears as I looked into this person’s beautiful life and the people he was surrounded with. The director Jason Baffa did such an amazing job with the DOP and cinematography. Such a wholesome documentary, I definitely recommend it 🙂 For more info, check out their link!

Bella Vita Film.

The Drop Box

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The Drop Box

One of the best documentaries I’ve seen. I literally could not stop crying on the bus as I watched from my iPhone on my commute to school, and at home when I finished up the movie seeing the incredibly sacrificial and caring Pastor Lee exert so much love, faith, and energy on these abandoned unwanted children. This documentary is about how this amazing man finds value in all children, and addresses the problem of baby abandonment by setting up a “baby box” and taking care of the abandoned babies his entire life and seeing them until full health. Korean society shapes so much of the shame and taboo of having a teen pregnancy or having a disabled child which has led so many young mothers give up their babies in this baby box in the dead of night, never wanting to be contacted or seen again. They literally abandon their babies by trashcans and this selfless loving man and pastor finds them and takes them in as his own.

I was so moved by this film, and so moved by Pastor Lee’s heart and endurance through this ministry. It takes his entire life and energy, yet he does it in faith and joy. He is so committed to loving these children, it is unfathomable on his own. We need more people like him in this world. People who care. Not just talk the talk but walk the walk. This is an intense movie, so get ready with tissues in hand. I was so so moved to not just live life for my own desires and dreams, but to live life for others. This young generation is so self-focused and maintaining their happiness, we forget to give back to the community and need people who live out this lifestyle to show us what true unconditional enduring love is.

I totally recommend this movie with all my heart! When you have time, please rent or buy it and watch it. It will change your life! Check out their link below!

The Drop Box Film

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“I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk
in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called,
with all humility and gentleness,
with patience,
bearing with one another in love,
eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit
in the bond of peace.”

“Be kind to one another,
tenderhearted, forgiving one another,
as God in Christ forgave you.”

-Ephesians 5: 32

Reminiscing Venice

My study abroad in Italy has been life-changing, and I can’t help but to look back with eyes of awe and wonder and longing. I miss you Venice! Vlog sort of documentary feel video I made a few months ago wrapping up my year in Italy with friends! 🙂 If you want to get a glimpse of how amazing this time of making new friends, experiencing new culture, and exploring so many different beautiful places, take a look at this personal video. It was so much fun with my friends at Junghans, and this is just a short clip of what really took place, but it has seriously been the best through the ups and the downs. Friends for life. Experiences permanent. Everyone should do this if they get an opportunity! Take a look and get a glimpse of life in Venice, Italy!

Perks of Being a Wallflower

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Ain’t it true?

This is a quote from the book and movie â€śPerks of Being a Wallflower” which I watched again earlier this year in Venice and resonated with me even until now. It really made me think about what kind of people and things we allow in our lives. I made this because it is very much something I had to reflect on while thinking about my past relationships and had also allowed so much turmoil and emotional abuse in. If somebody treats you unrightly continually, you begin to believe it’s what you deserve. And when you think it’s what you deserve, you end up accepting it as true and right. You accept the lies, the disrespect, the abuse. Only recently have I realized this and how different people have been telling me I don’t deserve some of those things. So hard to break out of, but this quote really made me think.

Ain’t it true?

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“What the fuck is your problem?
What the fuck is your deal you little cunt?!” She screamed to her sister in the driver’s seat.

“You selfish piece of shit, I fucking hate you!!”

Shock, silence, and quick thinking.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?!?” she screamed again.

The sensitive girl did not say much back. Too many things were being felt at once. The idiocies of her mistake, the fear that she was incredibly wrong and selfish, the confusion of what her friends just said and what this blood-related sister was screaming. The sense of humiliation yet the feelings of familiarity like she should’ve known this is what she deserved. She wasn’t allowed to have time for herself. Her sense-of-self was supposed be beat down. It did not belong to her. She would cling onto nothing else except these words being screamed at her. This was all very familiar. This large dark sometimes-violent malicious deeply-black rageful thing taking form and screaming at her.

“You are a motherfucking piece of shit. I hate you!! You’re the worst sister in the world, you selfish bitch. You think you’re a good little Christian huh? You fucking selfish bitch. Fuck you.” she finished.

Hatred and darkness surrounded the girl in the driver’s seat. All she could feel was the rage and attacks. She didn’t know she was feeling unsafe, but she was. She thought quickly. Self-analysis. “What did I do?! What did I do?!” More self-analysis. More reflection. Criticizing voices all around her. Her sensitivities heightened. Senses raised. Everything seemed to shake at her, scream in her ear about her failures and remind her to quickly analyze what she could’ve done so bad to cause such anger and hatred towards her. “The ride. Be on time. I pissed her off cus I didn’t pick her up on time. Next time I need to be on time. I need to do what she says. It’s not okay to spend time with friends if she needs me. I can’t do that. It’s my fault she’s mad. I am selfish. I’m a bad sister. I caused her anger and harm. I am really selfish. Be on time. I should be ashamed of myself. Don’t spend time with friends. I can’t do that anymore it’s selfish,” she said to herself. She needed to prove to her sister that she wasn’t.

She was scared.

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Start Graphic Designing

If you are like me and just started graphic designing with Adobe Illustrator, feeling stuck with all the new intimidating tools you can use, and need good reliable resources, this is the place to be! I really needed online resources to how to get started because I started taking graphic design courses at my university with a lot of senior and experienced people who I don’t really have relations with to ask for help. Since the projects and results have been demanding and intimidating, I started looking at videos to get myself started. It is a long process which will take a lot of time in the beginning, but I believe things will start to pick up as I pass through the frustrations! The results have been disappointing but also fun! Continue to work 🙂

It’s been so hard to start at home and alone, but these tutorials have been great to get you started! I am definitely a noob and learning everything from scratch, but you can also learn Adobe Illustrator at home thorough tutorials and friends who are able to help :). Here’s one that really helped me get started with doing characters and flat portraits. The guy has a funny-sounding, very animated, but humor-ly dry-sarcastic(?) voice but I still learned a ton by his process. He has very good videos! Everything takes a lot more time and meticulousness than what you see. So many hours… My respect to all the graphic designers and animators! Take a look and good luck ya’ll!

And here’s some of my own personal process while using this video!

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This took me soooo much time! And they are just bleh to me but we have to start somewhere! It was cool getting this done though. Good luck with your own!

Check out my other graphic designs at judyartworks.wordpress.com! Still learning new things and totally not a professional, but committed to keep growing and doing new things! Thanks! 🙂

Back in Korea, Back in Seoul

Coming back from over half a year abroad in Italy and various other countries in Europe, I can safely say that coming back to Seoul, South Korea has been a trip.

It’s been incredibly saddening but also uplifting in many aspects, and the contrasting cultures of the East and the West have really gotten me thinking what I really value in life, in perspectives, priorities, and relationships. Coming from a really relational, laid back, and respectful culture in the West to the fast-paced, surface-level, technologically consumed citizens of Korea have really got me reevaluating what I consider to be an abundant life. Though there are pros and cons to living in every country, what do I value most?

I think the biggest thing for me was being in an environment of loving, fun, authentic individuals that were all so unique and differed in background, language, lifestyles, and culture yet were able to harmonise as one and be open to new experiences and ideas of fun and leisure. Italy was such an amazing experience, through the ups and the downs, and I learned to slow down so much, put away my phone, and be fully living present in the situations and relationships I had with my friends. It was so beautiful too, and I was deeply moved again and again by the intricate gorgeous architecture that symbolised so much history and depth. Man, to see that in Seoul would be so nice as well.

Since Korea has quite a short history in comparison to many European ones, it’s been so strange coming back to a place with very modern living but with no attachment to history or background as I found with the Italians, Germans, the French, etc. This is a very homogenous nation, with very homogenous thoughts, with a very top-down hierarchy which has been very difficult to adjust back to whereas in the West the individual is appreciated and not looked down upon because of their skin color, tone, clothes, or language. The West is made up of very old history, war after war, enlightenment after enlightenment, with values that uphold human rights and basic respect for other human beings, and an appreciation of the self and others uniqueness. However, in the East, it is very much a collective society that loves to conform to one image and one standard, and easily brings judgment for being different or unique.

All this to say that wow, I love what I’ve experienced in Italy, in France, the Netherlands, and Greece, and would love to go back. I didn’t agree with everything I saw or experienced but nevertheless, I appreciated the freedom of expression and the ability to see beauty in people so easily by the peoples. But I also recognize that here and now in Korea keeps me focused on my career goals, sharpening my technical skills, and appreciative of the technology that we have access to almost everywhere. I still believe this smartphone culture of the East is inhibiting true authentic deep personal relationships and becomes a fast-paced surface-level society, where people need to learn to put down their phone, chillax, learn to love and be loved, and vulnerable with one another. Including experiencing life and beauty in a new way and with new principles aside from the pressures of society and Confucianist systems.

I’m coping, learning, moving forward, and also looking back with eyes of appreciation, thankfulness, and hope.

Graphic Designs

I am really starting to get into graphic designing and I am very excited to work on new designs!! I just started putting my ideas onto the digital paper, and here’s what I’ve been coming up with! Words of encouragement that I think each one of us needs to be reminded of, including myself 🙂

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I came up with this as I was going through depression and deeply rooted thoughts of worthlessness and unworthiness. As I am overcoming lots of it, I am realizing that people often struggle with this as well while going through depression and anxiety. I was remembering and grieving some moments when people I have loved had treated me with contempt and treated me like I was worthless through their words and actions. In a summary form of what I have been dealing for years: As I was crying with much grief remembering these traumatic abusive moments, I was reminded with a small still voice in my head saying, “Judy, you were still worthy to be loved then.” Which made me cry even more in hysteria, realizing that we should be worthy to be loved, no matter how people treat us. Which turned into a “You are worthy to be loved.” Which led to more tears and realization. Simply put, I think it was God. And I think it’s a truth that’s hard to believe if you didn’t think it growing up. But you better start believing it! Ask anyone around you that cares about you, they will agree.

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I’ve always wanted to use art as a form of encouragement, especially truths that I have learned the hard way, or wished someone would’ve told me at a young age. One being the thought that I am significant. And in turn preaching this message, I tell you that you are also significant.

The objects from this one are from a series of downloadable vectors I found online (thank you freepik.com) and I started changing the positions of the flowers and picking and choosing from various options, and changing the words to be more of importance and meaning. Simply reminding you that you are significant. Don’t forget that you are important and your life is very important. Don’t let this media digital world drown your beautiful meaningful life out in comparison to others. I know in Korea the suicide rate is incredibly high, and the happiness level in this country is incredibly low. Don’t be part of the statistics, and if you are, just know you are significant. Don’t forget it. Hold on to it. Save this and put it as your phone screen saver until it becomes a habit to read and remember. Hold on, dear.

More graphic designing ideas to come and be made! Requests are also okay in the comments, for encouragement (not for your business or profit). Thanks!

Book Recommendations

If you are looking for good reads that will really change your life or perspective on life, motivate you, and propel you to move forward in different aspects of your, here are several books that I have read and highly recommend!

The Search for Significance by Robert McGee

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This book gets deep real fast, and will consist of you looking inside yourself and your thought patterns to see where your fears and insecurities consists of, and what the roots seem to be, an how to overcome them through Christ. It is a Christian book, but provides so many layers of insight and freedom in having healthy self-concepts and a deep sense of unmoveable significance and worth.

Dreaming with God by Bill Johnson

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If you really want to move past the religious and stereotypical ideas about the Christian God and really go deeper into who he is, his real heart of love, and what his dreams consist of in this world, make sure you dive into this book. This is full of wisdom and insight and makes you reevaluate what kind of God you have been believing in. His kingdom is about serving others, and making others succeed, no matter their religion or background. To love others selflessly is the goal, not to put Christians at the top. This book is such a good read to know the overt and covert ministry of God 🙂 and very inspiring to tap into the creativity he longs to pour into us!

Steal Like an Artist by Austin Kleon

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Looking for inspiration as an artist? Need some really good tips into what it really is you are looking for and trying to do? Check out this incredibly entertaining and accurate book on what really happens while working on projects and where inspiration really comes from. Inspiration is not so hard to find and can be recycled continuously! This encourages you to keep all your passions and interests and make it work for you in different aspects of your life. This will really make you laugh as you relate to similar difficulties and questions while being a creative and wanting to pursue more.

Show Your Work by Austin Kleon

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This is the sequel to Austin Kleon’s first book “Steal Like an Artist” and really backs up his book’s ideas of creating things and propelling them into sharing things and getting discovered. If you need some motivation to keep on doing what you do and getting the most out of your social media resources, you really want to use all your outlets and also link them on one domain so people can see you at your best and fullest. He gives really good advice about showing the world what you really care about and what inspires you.

Understanding Photography Field Guide by Bryan Peterson

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This book is really an amazing guide on how to take good photos, what to look for in your composition, and gives you really awesome visuals on how the slightest changes in your photography can make a world of a difference. He breaks it down for beginners what different ISO settings, aperture settings, and shutter speed with visuals and easy examples to follow. He also touches upon wide ranges of photography skills like using macro shots, using blurred action to tell a story, how to look for texture and shapes in compositions, how to work with wide angle and fish eye lenses, and  working with themes. This is a must-see book for all photographers no matter what level of professionalism or amateurism. Striking photos and visual advice on getting the best out of your camera!

Quiet- The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking by Susan Cain

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Are you confused whether you are an introvert or not? Has society told you that extraverted traits are more desirable? Are you more highly stimulated by your surroundings and aware than most people? Or are you just interested in the differences between these personality types? Then this book is perfect to help you understand introversion and dismantle everything you ever thought about introverts. Many introverts can very much be outgoing and charismatic leaders, but need to recharge their batteries with alone time. They are more sensitive than others and constantly thinking, analyzing, and observing while also trying to be fully present in their surroundings. A lot of people mistake outgoing introverts as extraverts, but many of us are actually in desperate need of alone time, recuperation, and reflection time. Overstimulation can be draining, but we can learn to gain the most from our alone times and use it to be the best well-calculated, emphathetic, deeply motivated, genuine and authentic leaders and workers in this world. Fabulous book with different stories and studies on how this world needs introverts.

The 21 Irrefutable Laws of Leadership by John C. Maxwell

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Do you want to know the laws of leadership? Do you desire to understand how leadership works and what it really takes to become a leader? Then this book will be extremely insightful and challenging as you dig deep into the laws of leadership, which include investing in relationships and mentorships, being trustworthy and someone of integrity, and adding value to others. This is all for a lifestyle rather than a quick fix. People don’t care how much you know until they know how much you care. This book encourages individuals to start caring and connect to others, to be a good example, to stand your ground against negative momentum, and have a strong inner circle that is for you.

Soul Ties by David Cross

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Have any unhealthy relationships in your life that still affect you today? Do you still have flashbacks to traumatic moments where someone has defined the way you are or how you see yourself? That probably means you had an ungodly relationship that God desires to set you free from and renew. The damages of abusive or manipulative relationships can run deep, and can cause much darkness and heaviness over a person. This book seeks to see where negative things have been rooted and works to bring out the dark seeds through forgiveness and prayer, setting you free into the man or woman you should be walking in! This is a wonderful book that helped me differentiate unhealthy relationships and forgive them as they damaged my self-confidence and self-worth with their words and actions.